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looking back to move forward

February 25, 2010

I am ready for this pain to leave. I want to stop hating. I want to return to writing here about beauty.
But the hurt continues. I sit and look out the window at the glorious pink of the blooming cherry trees, and tears stream down my face–I am sad and angry and confused. And I [...]

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School is still in session

February 20, 2010

This morning I am thinking that so long as I still feel this depth of pain at the demise of my marriage, and so long as I continue to hate on my (ex) husband, there is probably a whole lot left for me to learn from my marriage and its failure.

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February 10, 1960

February 10, 2010

My (ex) husband was born February 10, 1960, which means that today he is 50 years old.
I am having very mixed feelings about this day. On the one hand, I find myself all mean about it, gloating in the fact that I am not hosting a small dinner party to mark the occasion. The dinner [...]

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the end.

January 21, 2010

The divorce was finalized just about 48 hours ago, and the grief is rolling in.
I do not know really, why the marriage ended. The man who was my husband (I am not prepared to use the prefix, “ex”) might be flabbergasted to hear me say that–that I don’t know really why he had to divorce [...]

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keeping accounts

January 7, 2010

In June, 2008, I “retired”, upon my husband’s prompting. This retirement was a culmination of his (and my) desire to spend more time together and do more things together–combined with his assertions since the initial days of our commitment, when he said he would and could provide all the money the two of us needed. [...]

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but who’s counting?

December 31, 2009

It is 2:38 a.m. and I have been awake now for about an hour, after not quite three hours of sleep. Pretty much normal for me anymore, to sleep a few hours, wake, rustle around, sleep, wake, rustle rustle.
It’s wearing on me.
And I am feeling sad.
There’s this thing that has been happening for awhile. Two [...]

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what would tiger do (differently)?

December 29, 2009

I have certainly sung the woe-is-me tune, wondering how my husband could be off seeking other women so soon after leaving me, and how could he be reunited within weeks with his former sweetheart.
More and more I attribute poor communication as a big factor in the “sudden” demise of my marriage. I am not without [...]

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a new Xmas

December 12, 2009

I am medium about Christmas. I don’t do the Christ child thing–never have really. But there are people with whom I have spent dozens of Christmas holidays, and we have a trove of traditions between us, and in that regard, I do enjoy this season.
My husband does not “do” Christmas. He has some poignant stories [...]

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more bang for the buck

December 10, 2009

I guess my husband didn’t appreciate my publication of the link to his love-wanted advertisement; he has deactivated the profile.
I don’t get it. Doesn’t he want more promotion of his quest? You know, stretching the dollar value of his membership and efforts at putting together his little self-promo?
What do you think? Should I publish [...]

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it’s been three years and seven months

December 7, 2009

Of course the title of my post calls to mind Sinead O’Connor’s song, Nothing Compares 2 U, and while her lyrics are not 100% apropos for my thinking about my own life right now, the poignancy of her song accurately pulls the strings of my heart, on this, the 3 year, 7 month anniversary of [...]

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