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gratitude

You didn’t not get a valentine from me.

February 14, 2010

You did not not get a valentine from me this year.
No one got a valentine from me this year. It wasn’t just you.
I know. I know. I ALWAYS send valentines.
But this year I did not. And I am probably more saddened by that than you are. Not to keep the focus on me or anything.
It’s [...]

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but who’s counting?

December 31, 2009

It is 2:38 a.m. and I have been awake now for about an hour, after not quite three hours of sleep. Pretty much normal for me anymore, to sleep a few hours, wake, rustle around, sleep, wake, rustle rustle.
It’s wearing on me.
And I am feeling sad.
There’s this thing that has been happening for awhile. Two [...]

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truth

December 6, 2009

Over the last few months I have been doing a lot of what I call “spewing”–essentially verbally vomiting my feelings and thoughts, with minimal regard for “what will people think.” I mean, I have been conscientious of the possibility of causing undue harm, and I have tried to avoid that. But otherwise, I have been [...]

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It is not for me to decide

December 5, 2009

Recently I have walked right on by several pan-handlers, without making a monetary gift to them. I make eye contact and smile, but I move along without handing over any cash.
I have had a few arguments in my head: “Oh, all I have is a five” or “All my money is buried in the bottom [...]

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Just saying thanks.

December 4, 2009

I have always been a bit of a social klutz. I like to blame it on my  parents’ own dearth of social interactions (so I had little example from which to learn) and my Myers Briggs reading (INT/FJ) — I tend to the Introvert realm of existence.
But, I have been working on overcoming my awkwardness. [...]

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Twelve steps

December 3, 2009

Without doubt, the kindnesses of loved ones and strangers have been my salvation these last few months. I know I have talked about this a lot, but it keeps hitting me in new ways, and I am coming to believe that learning so much about this form of deliverance might just be the “point” of [...]

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when it rains

December 2, 2009

It is not easy times I am living in and I have a core of rage; an awful lot of that is being vented on these pages. But I hope that I have also conveyed my gratitude (and awe) for all the good people and things in my life.
I am on some weird roller coaster, [...]

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Beth’s Box of Warm

December 1, 2009

I almost stumbled over this box on my way out the door.
Now I am not complaining, I am just saying that there was this big box sitting at my doorstep, which I had not been expecting to receive and so I almost tripped over it walking out my front door.
Always eager to delve into surprise [...]

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You Are Here

September 4, 2009

I have spent the last 12 days exploring the meaning of life, and pondering where I might be going with mine. It’s been a bit like summer camp. There were coin-operated showers, arts and crafts, fresh vegetables, and plenty of getting lost.
And I’ll just say that I am ready for my merit badge now.
Early in [...]

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On the brighter side

September 2, 2009

6:47 a.m. September 2, 2009. North America.
This is the way to start a day.

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