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There’s a New Girl in Town

March 2, 2010

Pinball is in my DNA. My father was a gangsta pinpall player, back in the days when pinball machines paid out cash winnings. He’d cheat, frankly, on top of being an ace player, and he’d travel from one small Montana town to another playing pinball, and getting running out of town now and again.
Later, I [...]

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looking back to move forward

February 25, 2010

I am ready for this pain to leave. I want to stop hating. I want to return to writing here about beauty.
But the hurt continues. I sit and look out the window at the glorious pink of the blooming cherry trees, and tears stream down my face–I am sad and angry and confused. And I [...]

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You didn’t not get a valentine from me.

February 14, 2010

You did not not get a valentine from me this year.
No one got a valentine from me this year. It wasn’t just you.
I know. I know. I ALWAYS send valentines.
But this year I did not. And I am probably more saddened by that than you are. Not to keep the focus on me or anything.
It’s [...]

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but who’s counting?

December 31, 2009

It is 2:38 a.m. and I have been awake now for about an hour, after not quite three hours of sleep. Pretty much normal for me anymore, to sleep a few hours, wake, rustle around, sleep, wake, rustle rustle.
It’s wearing on me.
And I am feeling sad.
There’s this thing that has been happening for awhile. Two [...]

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puddle. of. bliss.

December 19, 2009
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Just don’t tell me to behave

December 14, 2009

Friends in New York city.

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letting go, of stuff that’s not even mine

December 11, 2009

So I am in the midst of “brokering” a couple of transactions, having to do with one friend or another having something they want to be rid of, and another friend (or another), needing that something. I am sending emails back and forth and back and forth with questions and details.
And I am doing these [...]

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truth

December 6, 2009

Over the last few months I have been doing a lot of what I call “spewing”–essentially verbally vomiting my feelings and thoughts, with minimal regard for “what will people think.” I mean, I have been conscientious of the possibility of causing undue harm, and I have tried to avoid that. But otherwise, I have been [...]

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Just saying thanks.

December 4, 2009

I have always been a bit of a social klutz. I like to blame it on my  parents’ own dearth of social interactions (so I had little example from which to learn) and my Myers Briggs reading (INT/FJ) — I tend to the Introvert realm of existence.
But, I have been working on overcoming my awkwardness. [...]

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Twelve steps

December 3, 2009

Without doubt, the kindnesses of loved ones and strangers have been my salvation these last few months. I know I have talked about this a lot, but it keeps hitting me in new ways, and I am coming to believe that learning so much about this form of deliverance might just be the “point” of [...]

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