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November 11, 2012

Tonight something prompted me to think about my ex-husband and our marriage, and after a moment I thought, “I am glad we are not together.” This is the first time I can remember when I’ve had that thought in such a clear and unbidden fashion. I mean, I have rationalized that I am better off [...]

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A journey.

March 22, 2012

Two and a half years ago my marriage imploded. Little by little I move toward a new life, a life which once again fits me and incorporates my dreams. Two and a half years ago, I had my dream life. I had found a partner who shared some of my most important dreams, and we [...]

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A list is not a plan

January 2, 2012

I am a list maker. For many reasons, I make lists, and I could do the obvious here, and make a list of reasons why I make lists, but I will skip that, as it is too obvious, and it is not really what I am talking about right now. What’s important is that the [...]

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Not Tonight I Have a Headache

January 17, 2011

Usually there’s not much to be gained by denying or trying to avoid pain. So this Etsy Treasury is about embracing the pain by choosing our own representation of it—pretties to symbolize pain, without actually hurting. And even a little full-on humour.

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Not Now

September 7, 2010

I need to chime in here and say that living in the here and now, is not always what it’s touted to be. See, I was very much in the moment, when the big, steel pipe came crashing down upon my wrist–crack! I was just standing there, marveling at the blue sky and the fresh [...]

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School is still in session

February 20, 2010

This morning I am thinking that so long as I still feel this depth of pain at the demise of my marriage, and so long as I continue to hate on my (ex) husband, there is probably a whole lot left for me to learn from my marriage and its failure.

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the end.

January 21, 2010

The divorce was finalized just about 48 hours ago, and the grief is rolling in. I do not know really, why the marriage ended. The man who was my husband (I am not prepared to use the prefix, “ex”) might be flabbergasted to hear me say that–that I don’t know really why he had to [...]

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be careful what you say.

January 9, 2010

There was a comment on my blog recently that I hesitated to let be published–thinking it might disturb my brother. I finally chose to mention it to him, and am now making the comment public. The comment was left on this post where I rant and rail about my husband. I know who left it [...]

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but who’s counting?

December 31, 2009

It is 2:38 a.m. and I have been awake now for about an hour, after not quite three hours of sleep. Pretty much normal for me anymore, to sleep a few hours, wake, rustle around, sleep, wake, rustle rustle. It’s wearing on me. And I am feeling sad. There’s this thing that has been happening [...]

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what would tiger do (differently)?

December 29, 2009

I have certainly sung the woe-is-me tune, wondering how my husband could be off seeking other women so soon after leaving me, and how could he be reunited within weeks with his former sweetheart. More and more I attribute poor communication as a big factor in the “sudden” demise of my marriage. I am not [...]

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