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School is still in session

February 20, 2010

This morning I am thinking that so long as I still feel this depth of pain at the demise of my marriage, and so long as I continue to hate on my (ex) husband, there is probably a whole lot left for me to learn from my marriage and its failure.

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the end.

January 21, 2010

The divorce was finalized just about 48 hours ago, and the grief is rolling in.
I do not know really, why the marriage ended. The man who was my husband (I am not prepared to use the prefix, “ex”) might be flabbergasted to hear me say that–that I don’t know really why he had to divorce [...]

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be careful what you say.

January 9, 2010

There was a comment on my blog recently that I hesitated to let be published–thinking it might disturb my brother. I finally chose to mention it to him, and am now making the comment public. The comment was left on this post where I rant and rail about my husband. I know who left it [...]

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but who’s counting?

December 31, 2009

It is 2:38 a.m. and I have been awake now for about an hour, after not quite three hours of sleep. Pretty much normal for me anymore, to sleep a few hours, wake, rustle around, sleep, wake, rustle rustle.
It’s wearing on me.
And I am feeling sad.
There’s this thing that has been happening for awhile. Two [...]

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what would tiger do (differently)?

December 29, 2009

I have certainly sung the woe-is-me tune, wondering how my husband could be off seeking other women so soon after leaving me, and how could he be reunited within weeks with his former sweetheart.
More and more I attribute poor communication as a big factor in the “sudden” demise of my marriage. I am not without [...]

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a new Xmas

December 12, 2009

I am medium about Christmas. I don’t do the Christ child thing–never have really. But there are people with whom I have spent dozens of Christmas holidays, and we have a trove of traditions between us, and in that regard, I do enjoy this season.
My husband does not “do” Christmas. He has some poignant stories [...]

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it’s been three years and seven months

December 7, 2009

Of course the title of my post calls to mind Sinead O’Connor’s song, Nothing Compares 2 U, and while her lyrics are not 100% apropos for my thinking about my own life right now, the poignancy of her song accurately pulls the strings of my heart, on this, the 3 year, 7 month anniversary of [...]

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rotting away

November 23, 2009

My friend Stephanie likes to host a Polidori party now and again. Here’s how she explains it:
Polidori history: A few clever college students at the University of Dallas in the early 90’s decided to host something called “Polidori’s Pumpkin Party,” named for John Polidori in honor of the 1816 gathering of writers at the Villa [...]

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what’s trust got to do with it?

November 20, 2009

Two days ago I learned that within just three weeks of dumping me, my husband was back in the arms of a former lover, a woman with whom he had been serious not long before he and I met. I had known of her and had learned that they had reconnected, but I did not [...]

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loose ends so tangled there’s no tying them up

November 7, 2009

It is a Saturday afternoon and I am at my husband’s house. He is off improving himself, and I am here alone with the chore of sorting through the last of my things here, the aim being to finish up all the loose ends and leave him a house that contains none of me and [...]

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