November 11, 2012

Tonight something prompted me to think about my ex-husband and our marriage, and after a moment I thought, “I am glad we are not together.” This is the first time I can remember when I’ve had that thought in such a clear and unbidden fashion. I mean, I have rationalized that I am better off [...]

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A journey.

March 22, 2012

Two and a half years ago my marriage imploded. Little by little I move toward a new life, a life which once again fits me and incorporates my dreams. Two and a half years ago, I had my dream life. I had found a partner who shared some of my most important dreams, and we [...]

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Moving Along

January 21, 2011

The one-year anniversary of my divorce has come and gone, and I almost didn’t notice. That’s a good thing, the almost not noticing. It means that I have traveled a good, long distance from then and am more actually living now. It means that although I would still describe my heart as broken, broken-hearted is [...]

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2010, A Year of My Life

December 29, 2010

I am a quiet girl, prone to moving through life at a turtle’s pace and to doing things at small, detailed levels. I am not one for making big splashes, yet I know I can have profound effects. Nevertheless, when I look back at my life, sometimes I feel like I haven’t done much; the [...]

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Hit the Road, Jack

July 9, 2010

Next week I go on my first Airstream adventure. This photo is of the fer-true rig that I’ll be camping in, not just some purely representative image I dug up on the Internet. :) This is the same Airstream that my (ex) husband and I tried to buy from my brother awhile back, but couldn’t [...]

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Something I haven’t saved.

July 6, 2010

In this month’s theme of “saved” and on the eve of the three-year anniversary of my wedding, I am contemplating that thing I was unable to save—my marriage. Tomorrow is July 7, 2010. I was married on 07-07-07—ostensibly a favorably auspicious date—to a man with whom I believed my life was destined to be entwined. [...]

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School is still in session

February 20, 2010

This morning I am thinking that so long as I still feel this depth of pain at the demise of my marriage, and so long as I continue to hate on my (ex) husband, there is probably a whole lot left for me to learn from my marriage and its failure.

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February 10, 1960

February 10, 2010

My (ex) husband was born February 10, 1960, which means that today he is 50 years old. I am having very mixed feelings about this day. On the one hand, I find myself all mean about it, gloating in the fact that I am not hosting a small dinner party to mark the occasion. The [...]

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the end.

January 21, 2010

The divorce was finalized just about 48 hours ago, and the grief is rolling in. I do not know really, why the marriage ended. The man who was my husband (I am not prepared to use the prefix, “ex”) might be flabbergasted to hear me say that–that I don’t know really why he had to [...]

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be careful what you say.

January 9, 2010

There was a comment on my blog recently that I hesitated to let be published–thinking it might disturb my brother. I finally chose to mention it to him, and am now making the comment public. The comment was left on this post where I rant and rail about my husband. I know who left it [...]

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