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School is still in session

February 20, 2010

This morning I am thinking that so long as I still feel this depth of pain at the demise of my marriage, and so long as I continue to hate on my (ex) husband, there is probably a whole lot left for me to learn from my marriage and its failure.

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February 10, 1960

February 10, 2010

My (ex) husband was born February 10, 1960, which means that today he is 50 years old.
I am having very mixed feelings about this day. On the one hand, I find myself all mean about it, gloating in the fact that I am not hosting a small dinner party to mark the occasion. The dinner [...]

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the end.

January 21, 2010

The divorce was finalized just about 48 hours ago, and the grief is rolling in.
I do not know really, why the marriage ended. The man who was my husband (I am not prepared to use the prefix, “ex”) might be flabbergasted to hear me say that–that I don’t know really why he had to divorce [...]

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be careful what you say.

January 9, 2010

There was a comment on my blog recently that I hesitated to let be published–thinking it might disturb my brother. I finally chose to mention it to him, and am now making the comment public. The comment was left on this post where I rant and rail about my husband. I know who left it [...]

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keeping accounts

January 7, 2010

In June, 2008, I “retired”, upon my husband’s prompting. This retirement was a culmination of his (and my) desire to spend more time together and do more things together–combined with his assertions since the initial days of our commitment, when he said he would and could provide all the money the two of us needed. [...]

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what’s trust got to do with it?

November 20, 2009

Two days ago I learned that within just three weeks of dumping me, my husband was back in the arms of a former lover, a woman with whom he had been serious not long before he and I met. I had known of her and had learned that they had reconnected, but I did not [...]

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the rare flying cataclysm

October 18, 2009

I have been struggling with what to write. I find myself in this space where I just do not understand how I got here, and mostly all I can fathom is to blame myself–for not paying attention or something.
I find myself adrift. I find myself without a dream to follow. I find myself with a [...]

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Marriage.2

January 2, 2009

My task tonight, explaining the nigh-on unexplainable.
If you’ve been following along at home, you know that on November 7th, my husband of 16 months announced that he didn’t want to be married. I’ve posted here now and again about the “process” of adjusting to his announcement–my sorrow, my bouncing about amid friends’ homes, my anger, [...]

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next

December 21, 2008

Just threw an assortment of expired condoms in the trash. It’s been two years since I needed any, and these have been kicking around in the bottom of my sex-basket. I kept them around I guess for the same reason I kept spermicide and morning-after pills–in case one or another visitor to the house might [...]

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Water. Drowning in gratitude.

November 14, 2008

If you’ve been following along, you know that this month I am doing two things online, a daily blog post, and working with The Next Chapter group through the book, “Soul Coaching“.
It’s a great adventure, even though right now it feels like hell.
Today’s Soul Coaching focus is Gratitude. This is an area where I usually [...]

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