It’s a great adventure, even though right now it feels like hell.
Today’s Soul Coaching focus is Gratitude. This is an area where I usually excel, if such can be measured. I am generally grateful for so much–the little and the large.
But today, it is very difficult to dig into my soul and feel grateful. Yeah, the basics remain: gratitude for warmth and food and this groovy laptop computer. But right now, listing those as things for which I am grateful seems superficial and rote. Does not ring true.
Yesterday was such a beautiful day full of color and light and self-reflection (and I am grateful to have been in it), but I emerged with the clarity that I am not done with my marriage–which obviously is a problematic perspective since my husband says he is done.
So I sit here committed to the exercises that are in Soul Coaching, which today encourages us to “From the moment you read this until you go to sleep, focus on what is good in every moment. Think about what you are thankful for in every situation. . .”
And then, ” . . . make a list of the things that you are not grateful for. Now take each one of these and try to find a way that you could be grateful for it. For example, you might write, ‘I am not grateful for my divorce.’”
But gosh, right now, I really am not grateful for my (future) divorce.
So, in contrast, listing gratitude for warmth, and food, and coffee, and good friends (all true) seems somehow minor and mundane. Sorry.