Today, I am the clutter to be cleared.
After less than a week of working with “Soul Coaching”, the truth about my marriage is on the table, and from my husband’s perspective, I need to go.
So of course the good news is that I don’t have to walk through my life with a vague notion that something is amiss, but with no clear information about what is wrong. And, I can stop trying to forge a connection with him–he doesn’t want it, not going to happen.
The bad news. Well. As far as I knew, this marriage was my future. I don’t have a Plan B with specifics of what I want or where I want to go; I thought I was building something here, now, with him.
Not that I was defining my life in terms of him; I really am quite independent and all. But the key elements that (I thought) were to give shape to my future, were entwined with him and our lives emerging together.
At least I don’t feel completely stupid, as if I’ve lived in oblivion for these past months–he’s been quite an actor, covering his true feelings and evading inquiry.
One year and four months of marriage (as of today). Although I now know that for him it was already over quite awhile ago. Wow. Talk about clearing out the clutter.